found some new suppliers

I have been working on finding some new sources for trees due to the fact I will be needing nearly 1000 Paw paw trees and another 1000 of mixed fruit trees.I mave found my Paw Paw supplier and will be contacting some other individuals regarding their input on expansion opportunities. It looks as if there is more help out there and I need it.I have made contact with someone who has offered up some much needed leads on help..
I have only one problem lately,motivation..I am so tired lately and it is affecting my mission..I am no longer full of energy and hope that things are going to get easier because they are not..If anything they are getting harder..I seem to have reached a point in this journey that I am finding it hard to escape from..No more ..No more... NO more...
I dont have the luxury of stopping, I made a commitment..I however must be getting frustrated at the people who are getting in my way because I have been struggling with keeping my prayers positive.
I know people who are against my project and I dont like them,I know people who dont understand my project and I dont understand them. Just as  I know the people that are with me and it is those that I am with. Here in lies the problem,I used to have hope for those that do not understand and now I am starting to think they are hopeless even though this was a better part of my life, and as for those that are against me(at least the ones I have met) I dont ever remember being like them"without reason" not just in my purpose but in all of their purposes that dont involve them with money and power..So the problem is in my prayers.I cannot seem to care for those that I used to..I even find myself praying that they be placed in the light..I havent lost faith but it seems I am loosing something more human..  hope..
It amazes me that I thought the physical was going to be the hard part,its actually harder to ask the following of all who read this...Please send me your good thoughts and intentions again,I shall try not to wast them knowing how precious the are..Its as if I am running on empty again,and I need the fuel only you can supply..I hope I didnt whine too much..maybe I needed to sleep those 2 (nearly full)days..
It almost seems as if I am allowing myself to hold up the project for some reason,a situation that has a quick remedy..