found some new suppliers

I have been working on finding some new sources for trees due to the fact I will be needing nearly 1000 Paw paw trees and another 1000 of mixed fruit trees.I mave found my Paw Paw supplier and will be contacting some other individuals regarding their input on expansion opportunities. It looks as if there is more help out there and I need it.I have made contact with someone who has offered up some much needed leads on help..
I have only one problem lately,motivation..I am so tired lately and it is affecting my mission..I am no longer full of energy and hope that things are going to get easier because they are not..If anything they are getting harder..I seem to have reached a point in this journey that I am finding it hard to escape from..No more ..No more... NO more...
I dont have the luxury of stopping, I made a commitment..I however must be getting frustrated at the people who are getting in my way because I have been struggling with keeping my prayers positive.
I know people who are against my project and I dont like them,I know people who dont understand my project and I dont understand them. Just as  I know the people that are with me and it is those that I am with. Here in lies the problem,I used to have hope for those that do not understand and now I am starting to think they are hopeless even though this was a better part of my life, and as for those that are against me(at least the ones I have met) I dont ever remember being like them"without reason" not just in my purpose but in all of their purposes that dont involve them with money and power..So the problem is in my prayers.I cannot seem to care for those that I used to..I even find myself praying that they be placed in the light..I havent lost faith but it seems I am loosing something more human..  hope..
It amazes me that I thought the physical was going to be the hard part,its actually harder to ask the following of all who read this...Please send me your good thoughts and intentions again,I shall try not to wast them knowing how precious the are..Its as if I am running on empty again,and I need the fuel only you can supply..I hope I didnt whine too much..maybe I needed to sleep those 2 (nearly full)days..
It almost seems as if I am allowing myself to hold up the project for some reason,a situation that has a quick remedy..

Lets try this again!

Yea thats ol twisty in the background,gotta snag some parts before she leaves.This one shouldnt flip as easily,I hope. Makes for long days 3 hours on the road,eight hour days and another 4 hours on the road!

she may be twisted

she may be twisted

Ohh Sh$t

Well I guess I should be thank full that I didn't get hurt.I am however out a couple of grand in damages.I do believe the truck is a total loss as the frame could be bent.I was not covered for this kind of accident,I don't have the money it takes to be that cautious.I have purchased another truck and should have it by Monday night and legal by mid week so work can resume.My list of things too do keeps growing and my time keeps getting shorter.Dammit I was just getting used to that truck and it was running great.I wish I could just get it fixed but I dont have the resources.

had to take time off work

How sad,I had too leave work early to get plates for my truck.The web site was no help at the license station so I had to go there in person.They are very nice people that are very busy.Maybe that is the problem I am having with some of the other offices.Maybe they are busy to the point they are unable or unwilling to venture.Ahh yes ,this is the way I* wish to perceive it.In this mind set there are no" worries"just "situations"!!!
 I actually wanted to take a minute to say out loud how much I enjoyed working on my last project.The world was my orchard, and I lavished in its glory. It truly gives me hope that all is not lost in humanities roughest moment.
Many like Ian Lungold or Michael Tsarion will be willing to captivate your mind in the reality of our conspiracy,or speed up time to account for the realization of the continuation of human suffering on either side of the continuum.Maybe Terrance Mckenna, or Rick Clay knew the answer to a riddle that was never even properly displayed.Was it Phil Schnider or William Cooper or maybe its Barrack Obama or Romney who is willing to make the sacrifice to allow all that is good to move forward or at-least share in the information no matter the content. I hate so much of the world I live in because of the way we run it.We are running it into the ground and I have beeen there and dooone that in buisness..It is not fun..I guess what I am trying to say is that Hope is alive and well in people outside this community.I am starting to see why returning to work was so important and hard.I was beginning to be less human by letting this community  be my sole influence(or should I say "soul;" influence). We as a people should really look,listen,learn, and love.Yea my own words have saved me again..
Kewanee seems to be coming around a little,I shall be testing that situation soon to see if it is a fluke.
Now I need response from another agency to start in the flood plain.If I dont hear back soon I will be forced into abandoning the project for a while while I move on.This is where I need help from the public,take 30 seconds and pray for quick resolve to the situation and allowing BHCO to move forward,maybe even fully funded with the "Dry Basin Project" in some shape or form.

spoon river

I have been in contact with the spoon river conservation committee for the last four weeks.I have been explaining myself non stop as if they arent quite listening. I am sad to report that they have "gone full circle" on me,leading me back to the office where I got their information NRCS.
These the kind of responses that really make me angry. I guess I have no choice but to proceed with plan B. If that becomes an issue I do have another several plans,each one more in depth than the next.All is not lost by any means,much can be done in preparation for the next phase.I will be releasing that info "after the fact" as it is not necessary to repeat or bring to the surface again.I only need to present the project openly once, then I make it happen.This allows me to work in the light for all to see who wish to see,and brings those who oppose forward for all to see as well.

some more info

I havent been posting a lot because of a loss that was suffered in our circle,its sad that the memorial lots that I have created will most likely be filled with people and animals I know at this rate.I wont go into details.

I just wanted to share that I have been contacted by the Army and there is some information  there that will be very useful..

Memorial stones are being planned that are stronger and less expensive than previously suggested..I have several that need to be constructed,I am sorry for the delay..

The truck is broken and getting fixed..The bolens tractor is nearly completed and I am still working on the signs..I cant seem to get enough done in a day or even a week,now its turning to years..
I wish my job was closer to home...The car is too noisy for speech recognition software,and I am unwilling to go into debt to buy something else..It seems as if no one project can be completed and I dont like it..I will be regrouping again,pushing forward again,with what I have to work with.

I pray that some day soon more help will arrive..They say God only gives us what we can handle..I would like to think he sends help sometimes as well.